Sorry it could not be brighter, but after all, chasing a dream does not change reality—even clear across the country.
The location is beautiful, of course. The food? Fantastic, while it lasted; not that I indulged too much anyway. Here, views are worth a million postcards and the people, priceless.
But I promised I would share my experience, so I will remain honest without bumming everyone reading this out. Not that I expected bells and whistles, I have been out in the “real world” for some time to know better. Yet, the experience is not too far from disappointing for several reasons I cannot fully disclose.
The opportunity givers, whom I am still grateful for do not get me wrong, were not fully detailed about the amounts of money needed to simply exist in this oh-so-beautiful place. Furthermore, let us simply say that communications have been all but existent, which to be honest has been driving me crazy.
So here I am, using this space barely read to share my less than happy news that I have almost no money, am afraid of how I am getting to work in the upcoming weeks and basically have nothing left for food and/or do my laundry. Simple necessities really become important when you are here [inside my head], which I have sadly been many times before. [Insert irony here.]
Irony? Yes, irony. Why?
Well, my wife, who is doing very well in Indiana with my son and her family, said it best, “Babe, to be poor and do nothing at work, you could have stayed here with us.” Ironic.
Besides all these money troubles and lack of experience building, I also found out my Starbucks management did not manage any of my standing “opportunities.” Long story short, I will not have a job in August when I get back. So if anyone reading this has a job to offer, shoot me an e-mail and we will talk when I get back.
This afternoon, I also found out that I owe $1,500 to USF for two classes I did not take. I am not even getting into this. Let us just say I am trying to handle it. A break? Me? Never.
Am I ungrateful? No way in Hell!
One thing I have learned since I decided to take on the world sort-of-on-my-own about six years ago is that one cannot be ungrateful for anything that happens. Good or bad. Because negative shit happening around you will only get you closer to being positive, which will then get you closer to being balanced. And most of you actually reading this know all about me and my constant-balance-seeking teachings. Ha!
This morning, I began looking for a second job. Yes. Is that not about the last thing you would think would be happening? Well, it is happening. I figured I would begin looking in areas that would help me grow in my field. Luckily for me, I actually found two this morning. Of course, I applied first thing this morning. Fingers crossed.
I will make it work my friends. Although, I do wish I had my guitar here with me because I think it would really help me stay in line. Maybe I can find an acoustic guitar app.? Who knows?
Enough for this post; I will actually leave you on a positive note. Yes, positive!
These are some photos of my brighter days in the city, as the locals call San Francisco.
Thank you for stopping by. Perhaps the next time I post I will have gotten paid and all of this can go unexplained. On that note, never let money run your life. Not when you do not have any nor when you have too much. Remember, for millennia, we got along, survived and loved without the man-made, materialistically driven currency system.
I love you. You should love yourself more. I am a stranger for the love of all that is good!
PS: I am not sure how much weight I have lost, but I am two pant sizes smaller. At least one of my goals out here is not being challenged.
"It's times like these you learn to live again. It's times like these you give and give again. It's times like these you learn to love again. It's times like these time and time again." – Dave Grohl
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